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heys!!!!


i think this is my 100th post! hope you guys like what i wrote and maybe learned something too? hahas. :)

anws, im having a NEW blog! and this blog is going to be untouched. and so, it will be leave as the past.

my new blog web is

www.theartofdiaper.blogspot.com


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1 January 2007 - 2.16am

you must be wondering why i now so late le still write post bah? hahas. actually, i just came back from sembawang baptist church. i went there for watchnight service with my RBC friends. and that includes my kor kor too! hahas. oh ya... you still dunno bout the kor kor thing. hahas. ok.. i shall write a short one for ytd and the night before. :) today, or should i say ytd, i went to church and blah blah then i went for the watchnight service with RBC. they had their service at sembawang baptist church, their mother church (so called ). then i sat with mich. cos when in youth, we had to evaluate on our 2006. so david gave us a wire and call us to bend according to how our life have been. up or down. then i did mine, and we are supposed to draw it out. then after that, the wire belongs to us. so i just bend it to a... hahas. spiral, then got left over so i just bend it into a heart shape. i was thinking of giving to cai yun but nah.... i dun think she'll like it a lot. so i just gave adam, my kor kor. hahas. :) i gave him cos he is my first KOR KOR not gor gor. hahas. it doesnt make any diff but... to me, a lot. hahas. then today, i just realised that albert is the youngest of all my 3 gors. then adam is the oldest and also the only kor. hahas. then among all my gors and kor, i love the youngest and oldest the best. hahas. :) and both their names start with A!! hahas. and they are both VERY SHUAI and CUTE wor! hahas. jealous bah?! hahas. i got a singer for my kor kor and a football player for my gor. hahas. :) both POTENTIAL STARS! and they are my ZHUI AI too! hahas. XD i think i said enough mushy words le lah. :X i gave the wire heart to adam kor kor after we count down. i think i was quite sad having to leave 2006. i mean... ya... it contains many memories, from love to studies to of cos, GOD! hahas. and the happiest part of my year is actually with GOD! so i must say that GOD gives REAL and TRUE happiness. :D AMEN anyone?! hahas. then after that, we went home. my dad drove me and kor kor and mich and their oldest brother, daniel back. :) cos got 4 ppl mah.. so daniel and mich sit facing the back, while i and kor kor sit facing the front. cos i drank quite a lot of white wine today. i went with my aunt, also got drink half a cup, then when steamboat also drank one cup. wah siao... my head kinda spinning and i really wanna sleep. then since kor kor sit next to me, then must take opportunity mah. then i say i wanna sleep, so i just lay my head on his shoulder loh. ehh... its real nice loh... hahas. not very fleshy also not very bony. just nice. hahas. "of cos lah hohh... my kor kor mahhs!" hahas. :) then i actually wanna sleep de. but dun want lahh. he sick then i think he quite tired too. cos if i lie on him then he no where to lie liao. then he also cannot move. quite stress de. hahas. XD so ya lohh... i not so cruel, i didnt lie my head on his shoulder. but still stay close to him. he got the warmth lahh.. very shu fu.. hahas. :) very... very... i dunno lehh. got that kind of 'i will protect you' de feeling. hahas. X) then i talk to him lohh.. bout his friendster bout school, blah blah blah... hahas. :) then he tell me tonight he maybe wouldnt sleep very early cos today is NEW YEAR le mahh. hahas. then i was like "cannot lahh. you sick lehh.." hahas. please lohh.. my kor kor sick, i will xin tong de leh. hahas. i treat them really like my real bro and sis de, unless our distance grow distant le lah.. or not, i will always maintain the closeness of me and my 'sibs', especially my gors and kor. i dunno why, i just like the "gor gor" or "kor kor" words. i mean... im the only child and stuffs. then no sibs at all. then when you have this gor and kor, you, fine maybe more like me. i will feel like i got this gor/kor to protect me and care for me, i will feel very cared for. hahas. i sometimes can dun care friends and go for my gor/kor de. hahas. i know its bad lahh. but.. i just cant bear and i DUN WANT to lose my gor/kor. quite heart breaking de, you know. somewhere bout when you break up de feeling but not so serious. but I REALLY TREASURE MY GORS AND OF COS, MY ONE AND ONLY KOR. :) hahas. i think i write out off point le hoh. hahas. XD anws, we reached woodlands very fast. so i went down and helped michelle opened the back door. hahas. then i said i want a hugg. aww.. to michelle first, of cos. then after that, i said i wanna hugg from my kor kor too. hahas. and so.. I HUGG MICHELLE AND ADAM KOR KOR! cool huh?! too bad michelle cannot tickle de, cos she... ( shhhh... cannot say ). BUT BUT BUT!!! i can tickle adam kor kor. hahas. he very scared tickle de. XD and i also dunno why, i like to bully bully adam kor kor. he very nice to bully. hahas. :D his reaction also very cute when you bully him. :) anws, i think i shall say bout how i get this NEW KOR KOR. hahas. i think some of you guys know liao, cos i so happy until i cant wait to tell you guys. hahas. :) anws, i just wanna wish you guys out there a HAPPY NEW YEAR! may you know GOD more and also grow in Him. :) like what andrew said in his testimony today. James 4:8 "Come near to God and He will come near to you." XD AMEN!

ok... i think i really have to sleep now. its already.. 3.02am le! i'll write in my next post bout my new year resolutions and my past year reflections too! that post is gonna be very very long! hahas. :) anws, i think the wine is having my eye lids to close le. tmr still have to wake up for shopping. sigh yo.. hahas. XD nites! HAPPY NEW YEAR yeah..!

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30th December 2006 - 12.24am

hahas. i just bathe ok. i went to prisy's house, just for info. i know i should be sleeping and stuffs. but i think i really should share what happened today here. :) heys, this means i trust you guys kies. :) ok... today, err... i mean ytd. whatever. :D ytd, i had bible study. i was quite tired. i dunno why. i think it was cos of the boredom. then bout 3.25pm, prisy came. she looked very tired too. she went for band chalet. and she only slept for.. 1 hour there. and when she got back, she slept for another 1 hour. wOaHhh.. she only slept for TWO hours. hahas. right... no wonder she looks so tired. anws, hui ming came soon after, bout 4. i open prayer. and we start. kinda. we shared our homework first. which is actually, book reflection. hui ming gave us a book and we are supposed to read it and then write 8 things that we've learned, 5 verses that we like, 3 things i want to apply and 1 thing i've already applied. hahas. :) i seperated the bookk into half and read it in two days, starting from wed. i did finished my homework by thurs, in time for fri. then we are supposed to share one thing from all those things we've wrote. and so, i shared one that really striked me wen i read it. it goes like this, "sometimes God's greatest refusal is the truest answers to our prayers." its not really a passage from the bible but it was written in the book. it really striked me. ok, some people might not really get it. i shall explain. it means that sometimes when God say 'no' to what we ask in our prayer, 'no' is the real answer for what we actually want. i hope you know what i meant. hahas. God wants the best for us, so He wont make unjust or bad judgements. AMEN?! hahas. :D actually, there is a story behind why i was so striked at this sentence. its me and calvin. i used to like him, as you can see from my quite previous posts. i used to like him a lot a lot. too much until i cant see God. almost whatever i prayed was for me and calvin to be together. or sometimes when it gets to hurting, i would pray to give up. im actually contradicting myself. before i saw the 'give up' path, i always prayed that we will be together. every night, every time, every single prayer will%2

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25th December 2006 - 11.00pm

i just thought i write a little bout today. im not really in the mood today. quite sian. cos the first thing i wake up, i found i got my mens. sighs. so sian. but at least, THANKS GOD! that its after all the fun stuffs. after mission trip, after ROCK THE WORLD concert and also after ytd, christmas eve. :) but today, teng called me and invited me to charmaine's birthday party. i want to go. but i dun feel like going. i very sian. anws, i also want to used the com. i need to email all my mission trip, ROCK THE WORLD concert and ytd's photos to adam. so i just smsed teng that i come that thing and so, cannot go loh. then i spent the rest of my day writing bout the ROCK THE WORLD concert and also renaming all those photos. ytd, i did all the auto enhance and the spotlight stuffs until almost 4am then sleep. sighs. so today, i just wrote and renamed. i finished everything bout 2 plus 3. so i went online. i went to post, went to tag ROCK THE WORLD concert blog, went into msn, went to attached all the photos too. while i was online, isaac, michelle and adam got online. not at one time lah. but i got talk to them. i practically talk to ellen, isaac, michelle and adam only. :) then the rest of the time i did my own things. anws, after i finished, we went to bpp. my dad want to print out his photos. then we went to my grandma's house. then when i was walking to the kitchen to check out the food. there was nobody there then. i suddenly felt like crying. but of cos i didnt allowed myself to do that. then i took my hot piping fried kway teow to my granny's room. the twins are outside, you see. so i was aloned there. i switched the tv to MTV chinese. there was a song playing. then i ate my mee. i hear the song and ate my mee. then i started feeling like crying again. agh... but no, i still didnt allow myself to do that. anws, i think thats all i should say. my stomach is aching a little again. :( i think i better go put vicks and sleep le. :) good nites.

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25th December 2005 - 12.52pm

hallos. as i promised in the last post, i will write what i've missed not telling you guys. err.. should i tell you guys about the ROCK THE WORLD concert first or my mission trip? hahas. hmm... i think the concert first lah hoh. hahas. ok then.

23th December 2006
** written on 25 December 2006 - 12.54pm **

today has finally arrived!!! ROCK THE WORLD CONCERT! i invited a lot of people but... only 4 managed to come. jolynn, cai yun, yan ting and chester. hahas. :) and only jolynn and chester accepted christ. hahas. :) as in long before this concert. XD we had a lot of fun there. chester came later than the four of us. :) so i waited outside for him. but before that, jol and i went to the toilet. while walking to the toilet, i saw AARON! he cut his hair! OMG! hahas. and i think he looks cuter this way. :) then i continued walking, then i saw ADAM! he was wearing his new japanese hat he bought from MBK in bangkok. hahas. shuai shuai wor. XD then cos, i told jol bout mission trip and also the i go adam room thing so she wanna know who is the adam i saying. cos she see before isaac le mah. then see again for what?! hahas. woopsie! am i bad? hahas, :) then i saw adam wearing his hat, then i always bully him de mah. kinda. hehhehehs. so i go wriggle his middle hair in the hair. hahas. i dunno how to say lah. but i think if adam see this post, he will "aghhh..." hahas. cos i kinda messed up his hair. hahas. cos he is the lead singer and guitarist mah. so he must be shuai-est among the group. hee hee. :) then after i messed up his hair. i faster run to the toilet, later kanna. X) then later we come out of the toilet, then we go back our seats. i wanted to sit in front so i can have a perfect view. XD then i and jol went to fetch chester. he took a cab to the salvation army. while waiting for him, i and jol took photo of ourselfs. :) then after that, chester came so we go up to the hall. then soon after, the concert started. adam started with a group introduction. :) then they sing their first song, "Rock the world". this song is created by them. hahas. :) then they sing another song created by adam, "let's go!". the song was a total rock. XD i wanted to stand up and dance and jump and you know get high. but no one seems to get that crazy, they just sat down and listen to the songs. aghh.... i was in the mood of getting high. then they all like that. then adam started his testimony. he told me that day when i was in his room, mission trip that time. that he broke his testimony into different parts and slot it in after each and every song. he sang and shared his testimony. i was waiting for the song "what will i ever be". im so addicted to this song. cos that time, in his room, i sang that song then i record then i at home listened and i ended up addicted to that song. hahas. :) and whatsmore this song is he create de. :) anws, he sang "zi you", its means freedom in chinese. :D then it was a song i very long never hear liao and i like this song a lot. but i was stupid enough not to record. i only started recording at the 6th song which is "what will i ever be". anws, he continued sharing bout now as teenagers, we chased after things like the opposite gender, all those materialistic stuffs. and so they sang "chasing cars" by snow patrol. only that, this time it was not adam who sang. it was joel. he sang chasing cars in a very accoustic way. its very nice. very soothing. but kinda slow. hahas. :) then he shared about him and his dad and his girlfriend that he have when he was 15. it was getting quite sad already. i knew it. then he sang the next song, "what will i ever be". the song i've been longing to hear. :) then after that, he started sharing bout his girlfriend. about no matter how perfect he try to be. she is just not satisfied. in my heart was like "ok... adam is such a nice guy liao le. still not satisfied." hahas. i mean i dunno how he was when he was 15 lah. but i think the adam i know now is a very nice guy. :) then he sang this song he created, "under construction". oh man. my heart was a little aching le. hahas. i also dunno why. hahas. XD then after that, he shared bout him eating panadoles and cutting wrists, trying all means to kill himself. i knew all these ever since that night in his room but now, he say it right out of his mouth. everything tasted different. the feeling is much sadder, the atmosphere and everything. i could cry, you know. i was about to but i controlled my tears. i dun want it to dropped. hahas. :) i controlled and controlled and luckily, it didnt dropped. but still my heart ached. as in very sad lah. even adam himself started to tear lah. but he controlled himself and sang the next song "yuan liang". it means "forgive" in chinese. then while he sang that song, i really could feel that he wants forgiveness from his dad. adam has hurt his dad very deeply and he wanted his dad to forgive him. but now, he is not even here to see the concert. :( he died of cancer 3 years ago. :'( then after that, he called hui ming up and she'll sing two songs. one with richson and another solo. i loved the song which was sang by richson and hui ming. "who am i?" WaHHhh... the lyrics is like OMG! hahas. :) then hui ming sang one song solo called "jesus takes the wheel". it was a very fast song. so i think its quite hard to sing too. then adam shared again. this was when he started sharing bout jesus. then he sang a song called, "what are we waiting for?" he wrote the song. it was a very nice song. adam can be a song writer liao le. XD then pastor daniel came up and shared a short message and he did the outercall. and there was one who raised up her hand. everybody had their eyes closed so no one actually know who is it, except for pastor of cos. :) then he prayed for her and us as well. then after that, adam and his band sang their last song, "pick it up". and then, it ended. THE CONCERT ENDED!!! booo hoo hoos... so fast jiu end le. :( anws, after that, we took a lot of photos. got with priscilla, got with michelle, got with adam and also got with chester. hahas. i even took with fish. hahas. :) and hui ming. then err... i, michelle, adam and prisy went to the "rock the world" cloth and we jumped there. trying to take a photo of us in mid air. hahas. XD but it was quite dark so ya.... didnt turn out quite well. but still can see our figures. hahas. :) then we took a group photo. all the youths from redeemer, ccbc and leng guang. hahas. :) then also got one group photo has uncle swee meng in it. cos, he is young at heart. hahas. WOO HOO! then we had a lot of fun. :) but cai yun and yan ting keep on wanna go eat supper. then in the end, i go with them. then we went to eat supper at a '7-ELEVEn' behind jol's house. then after we ate, we went back home. :) i missed the concert.. boo hoo hoo.. dunno when am i gonna see them again.. hahas. so sad. :(

hahas. thats for the rock the world concert. the thailand de ah. maybe next time lah kies. i need to send the mission trip photos to adam liao. oh ya. and also ytd, which is 24th dec. isaac told me what happened after i left. and you know what?! agh... they have so much fun. i think i prefer to be with them then go with cai yun and yan ting. hahas. XD

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24th December 2004 - 11.50pm

hallos! hahas. so fast... everything in 2006 is going to be another last year thing. hahas. hope you understand all these crap im saying. hahas. cos today, im REAL HYPER and IN SUPER GOOD MOOD! hahas. i also dunno why. ytd i came back like so late from the ROCK THE WORLD concert and supper. hahas. and i didnt have a very nice sleep either. i had a slight stomach ache when i was getting ready to sleep. agh.... hahas. what a timing! hahas. X) then i tried to poo. but cannot. hahas. so i just put some 'vicks' on my stomach and put my 'baby' pillow on my it. the pillow will give it the 'warmth' for it to be better. :) even so, i pray too. i pray for my stomach and some other stuffs too. and God answered my prayer! AMEN! my stomach was FULLY recovered. and i dozed off somehow. but i was kinda awoken by my dad's alarm clock. i would normally cant be able to hear my 'rents alarms. but.... today morning.... oOOo.... hahas. :) then after i wake up, i CANT get back to sleep. is that a miracle or what?! hahas. i seldom cant get back to sleep de. hahas. :) even though i didnt have a very nice sleep, i was very energetic today, i also dunno why. hahas. i was today's usher. so i have to reach earlier. hahas. so i was there earlier than priscilla, my usher partner. so i went up first and waited for prisy there. then suddenly i heard these 'clank clank' sound, like those for high heels. hahas. so i was wondering, to cure my curiousness. i looked down and GUESS WHAT I SAW?! PRISCILLA!!!! IN A SKIRT WITH THE BIG ROUND EARRINGS, we bought at Udonthani. and whatsmore, she wore SANDALS!!! as in that kind of go out that kind de. OMG!!! was she PREEETTTTY or what?! i was OMG OMG OMG OHHH MYY GOSSHHH, PRISCILLA!!!!! hahas. XD i never in my lifetime see her wear like this before. than when priscilla saw what i wore. ( i wore my 'artist' shirt, bought in Udonthani. and jeans. very casual. ) she was so shocked. hahas. she wear until so formal and i wear until so casual. TOTAL CONTRAST man! hahas. :) but before the worship started, we were chatting. i had this problem. cos my 'rents has made a badminton appointment with uncle chua. so they cant fetch me anymore. and i have no more mission trip training. so i have ONE BIG SLOT of time after youth till 6, which is the carolling at uncle peter's church. so i was like 'oh man oh man... what am i going to do?" but prisy saved me. she asked me if i wanted to go for michelle's baptism after church. there's no youth anws. so i was like "YES!" HEY! i can get to meet michelle, adam, jolene and blah blah... and whatsmore MICHELLE'S BAPTISM!! OMG!!! hahas. i said "ok." but we still have to asked our 'rents. and guess what they allowed! AH!!!!! PRAISE THE LORD MAN! anws, when we were waiting for us to do our job, we were outside singing the worship. hahas. :) we echoed, we sang and did quite a handful of stupid stuffs. XD anws, we did our ushering job and went to our seats at the back of the hall. i brought my banana chocolate pocky. hahas. i promised her that we will share in the coming sermon. hahas. X) so while we hear the borrring sermon, we ate the pocky. :) then after it all ended, i and prisy gave the 'TRASH' ( started by ADAM. ) we bought for our precious DARLING, HUI MING!!! its actually a 'hello kitty' dustbin. its quite small, quite perfect for a teacher like hui ming to put on her staff table or at home. :) anws, if you dun know, hui ming is a hello kitty frantic. XD she LOVES and ADORES hello kitty a lot BUT BUT BUT... BUT she LOVES and ADORES GOD more!!! AMEN ya!? hee hee hee. X) when hui ming saw the 'TRASH', she was so shocked and surprised. hahas. it was kinda obvious that she loved it a lot. and HEY! thats GOOD ok..?! hahas. :) then.. after that, we went to eat our tea reception. WOAhhhh!!! hahas. it was so much nicer than the usual. got HAM, BACON, TURKEY. and also SANDWICHES and also POTATO CHIPS! hahas. XD i ate quite a lot cos i dunno what will be next. hahas. :) i ate until i was quite full. while eating, hui ming gave us our pressies too! it was a little sheep handphone holder. i would be REAL REAL crazy and will be screaming for JOY if i still like calvin. but... HA HA HA HA! I DUN LIKE HIM liao. and im proud of myself! * pat on the shoulder * XD even so, i still am happy that i got such a cute sheep handphone holder. :) then after we ate, we had a small chat then we went to UNITED SQUARE! michelle's baptism starts at like 3pm, and that includes the sermon and everything. so we have like.. * counting * 11, 12, 1, 2.. that means we have 3 HOURS! to shop and eat. is it kind of long. hahas. anws, i and prisy went united square and walked around, while we waited for isaac. he went to TTSH, tan tock seng hospital, which is just behind Novena Square. and Novena Square is very near to united square. :) so i and prisy walk here walk there. and we ended up in "TOYS 'R' US". we walk around the whole shop and we saw a corner which has tons of soft toys. hahas. so we both were a little crazy and zi lian, more like me. HEHHEHS! we took a lot of photos with COOKIE MONSTER ( ADAM!! ), ELMO ( MICHELLE!! ). hahas. also got a few POOH and err... i dunno some monkey and some puppets too. :) we even take videos. XD but i took the video and prisy was the one i took PLUS the "puppet", of cos. XD then after that, we went down and walk. and then isaac come liao. so we walk to novena and walk the new sports shop there. after a few BRANDED shops, we settled down at LONG JOHN'S!!! hahas. we ate there and also chat there too. X) we from 12.39pm eat and talk until 2pm. then we left the place and took a bus to REDEEMER!!! WOOOooOOOooOOOooOOoOoOoOOoooOOOoooOoo!!! hahas!!! cant wait man! ok ok.... here comes the FUN AND JUICY parts. ----> down there!!

when we reached REDEEMER, there were already people there, but not much. it havent start yet, still got quite some time. :) then we three sat at one corner. a three seat de lah. hahas. we were chatting then suddenly, i felt vibration from my hp. so i looked at it. i got an sms from hui ming. she called me to chope her a place beside us. hahas. :) so we shOOoo away isaac. and he sadly sadly.. hahas. kinda.. went to sit with andrew. then cos isaac sit the most inside. so prisy just moved in, so i followed suit. so now its prisy, me and empty seat. hahas. it was for hui ming. got a candy cane to represent. hahas. but then hoh... HAHAS! adam and michelle came. hahas. THEY BOTH CUT THEIR HAIR!!! hahas. and to me, michelle looks more girly and prettier too and adam looks more..... hahas. neat? tall? hmmm.... i also dunno how to say leh. hahas. i got take photo with him, so you go judge yourself. but i think adam looks more... cute? or hot? ooOOOpps. hahas. better not say more. later you guys say i like him. hahas. I'LL KILL YOU MAN! hahas. XD anws, then he want to find a place to sit. cos my beside nobody mah. so he wanted to sit. then i say cannot cannot. chope for hui ming liao chope for hui ming liao. hahas. then he say "ai ya.. dun care lah!" then he laughed and put aside the candy cane and sat down NEXT to me. WOOOooo.. hahas. whatever. hehhehhs. bleah bleahs.. :p jealous i sit with cute cute guy ah?! hehhehhs. TOOOOooOooO bad!! HAHAS! XD then ya loh. we chatted. i let him hear the songs i recorded at the concert. :) then he was like "you record?!" hahas. i was like "ya...." then i laughed. :) so i let him hear. then i call him to faster come out their cd. inside my heart was like "i will be the first one queueing up for YOUR AUTOGRAPHS!" hahas! then he started singing the song "zi you", freedom in chinese. :) hahas. so funny. hee hee. X) then after that, the sermon started. i said i hope i bought an extra pocky so we could share. then she opened up her bag. and passed me her gummy bears. hahas. :) my hand was quite sweaty, so i called adam to help me open. he open le then he sneakily ate one. hahas. :) ai ya.. its ok.. hee hee. XD then behind which was johnathan and richson, they asked for the gummy bears. so i passed them after eating a few gummy bears. they ate the whole pack. but i asked for two at different times. the first time i asked, they gave me one and i ate it. then the second time, i took it. then i suddenly dun feel like eating. hehhehhs. so i gave it to adam. and he gladly take and ate it. :) then after the sermon ended, we had our buffet dinner. WOAH... i think im gonna grow fatter if this carries on. hahas. X) we went to take our rice. then cos adam is the first among us girls, so he helped us take. hahas. OMG! he take a lot you know! hahas. i think what i wanted was like 1/4 of what he took. then hui ming called adam to take half can liao. oks... then we took our rice. to me, its still a lot. hahas. :) * CRIES! * then after that, jolene's brother came to us. adam asked him "over at the opposite side got what? why so many ppl?" then he said "i dunno. but i only know got egg. tea egg." then you know lah, i egg-frantic de. hahas. love egg forever de. :) so when i heard egg, i fake fake faint. hahas. some of you might know what i mean. XD i will say something along the lines of "faint liao i gonna faint liao" then i'll laugh. hahas. XD then adam who was in front of me said he'll help me take. i was like "cool! ok. thanks!" then i take my other food and go back. then adam suddenly give me a plastic cover with two eggs on top of it! oh man... i not good at stablizing myself, whatsmore the eggs. hahas. then i was like "ahhhh... oh man oh man!" then prisy offered to help me take my bowl. hahas. so i can used to hands to hold the cover. then.. hahas. pastor jerry saw me then he helped take a cup then call me to put the eggs in. hahas. :) so i did as what he said. hahas. and hahas. it safely and PEACEFULLY reached the table. hahas. then we started eating. i was sitting next to prisy and then beside prisy is michelle. then opposite is half hui ming and half adam. then jolene came and sat next to adam. then she was eating. then she saw the two eggs in the cup. hahas. :) then she say "ehh.. i want the egg!" the two eggs was actually for me and adam. then since i take a lot of food already and i also dun wanna dirty my hands. XD so.... i said "orh ok loh... i give you mine loh. anws, i also got a lot of food liao." then.. suddenly halfway through we were eating, adam peeled one egg. i didnt really take much notice cos i thought he was peeling for himself. then suddenly "BLOOP!" he dropped it into my bowl. i was like "OH OK! thank you!" hahas. i was like so shocked. i didnt expect he will peel for me and whatsmore i kind of gave it to jolene liao. hahas. XD i think i can call adam, gor gor liao. hahas! he really takes care of me like im his little mei mei. hahas. kinda. XD HEY! if he wants to be my gor gor, i very willing to be his mei mei de hao bu hao. hahas. XD i mean he is like the first guy to peel something for me, except for my dad lah! DURR!! hahas. got guys help me peel lah. but must plead de. even my now gor gor also never like that take care of me loh. * hint hint! *hahas. :D WOAAhh.. :) adam gor gor... hmm... not bad not bad... HAHAS! XD ANWS! ANWS! hahas. :) ya.. i saw jolene's reaction when adam 'bloop' the egg in my bowl, she was like "sigh yaa...." i mean. there goes her so-called egg. hee hee. then he only peeled mine loh. he never peeled the other one for himself, you know. after he peeled, then he continued eating. X) i thought he maybe like peel mine too cos he is gonna peel his too. hahas! but.. NO!!!! OMG!!! XD he is like so nice. he not scared later i like him ah. XD chichichi. :) i very easy like guys de, especially if they are nice and takes care of me. :) EH EH EH! dun anyhow say ah! tell you guys first! hahas. :) then after that, we went back to take our bags and back down to go to the baptism place. its quite near only but its raining, so we have to take the cars and vans. :) then we sat jolene's dad van. altogether got 8 passengers. at the back got michelle, jolene's bro, jolene and hui ming. then the more in front got adam, me and prisy. then in front is a very hot little girl. hahas. then plus the driver lo. hee hee. then we reached there in less than 5 mins. then michelle went to get ready for her baptism. then before that, they got a group photo. and then they got a short break for them to take with their friends and relatives. so i took with michelle, prisy, hui ming and adam. then the baptism started. i think the water must be real cold. its drizzling and there's wind. even if im not in the water, i felt quite cold le. X) then after all those people we wanted to see baptist, hui ming think that we should go now to uncle peter's place. then i want to take a photo of adam's new hair, so i called jolene to come in. but she dun want. so... i called hui ming. :) hahas. then we take a photo. but it wasnt very nice lah. hahas. i think the best one is the one that we took with michelle. the very first one, altogether got 5 of the same thing. hahas. but in that photo, everybody smiled nicely and everybody was closed. XD then after that, we have to say our final goodbyes, FINAL?! no no... just a goodbye. XD if final hoh, then i sure very sad. no more fun liao. X) then we said our goodbyes and took a cab to uncle peter's house. we did carolling there. i dont want to explain much here cos its not juicy and hot.

ANWS, I THINK THIS YEAR'S CHRISTMAS EVE IS THE BEST CHRISTMAS EVE EVER!!!!!!!!!

aws, now its already 2.04am. hahas. i think i better hurry sleep and wake up early tmr to write the rest of my thailand trip and also about the ROCK THE WORLD concert!!! :) good nites kies! oh ya!!! here is your christmas pres. XD oops oops. hee hee. :) special darlings got real pres lah kies. X)

I WISH YOU A MERRY CHRISTMAS!
I WISH YOU A MERRY CHRISTMAS!
I WISH YOU A MERRY CHRISTMAS!
AND GOD'S TIDINGS TOO!!

GOOD TIDINGS TO YOU,
WHEREVER YOU GO.
GOOD TIDINGS FOR CHRISTMAS,
AND GOD'S BLESSINGS TOO!!

** this one is learned from mission trip de. XD **

nites!!!

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11th December 2006 - 18th December 2006 ** went to THAILAND!! **

** written on 21th December 2006 - 11.38pm **

hallos again! as i promised, i will continue writing today. err.. hahas. :) ok... i shall not waste time... hahas. :)
guess what!!!!!???????? I JUST GOT SCOLDED! AGH!!!! i slept in the afternoon cos i ate my medicine then i was tired, so i slept lah. got wrong ah?! now im NOT tired. whatever! F*** man!! agh.... i was having a not bad day! ahhhh!!!!!!!!!!!11 they say what lucky here lucky there! WHO CARES!!!!! ** calming..... ** anws, i shall continue writing the trip with tears. damn it! DAMN DAMN DAMN DAMN DAMN DAMN DAMN!!!!! DAMN IT! ** go back to the feeling of that day **

12th December 2006 - 2nd day, starting the trip alr.

oh man! i had the best time of my life here. kinda. hahahas. ok.. i shall start from the start. hahas. i had to wake up at like 6 plus. hahas. thats damn early for me. kinda. hahas. anws, i still did wake up. i and shu shyan, my roomie, went down to eat our breakfast. when we were down, there were already people there and some even finish their food and they are just sitting there, slacking. hahas. :) not a nice word huh. hahas. :) anws, after that we had a short worship that was lead by adam. he plyed the guitar and sang at the same time. cool huh?! hahas. anws, we had our group devotion too. i didnt do my devotion. hahas. auntie christine shared. hahas. it was her first time sharing so she do not know what to do actually. but she prayed and GOD lead her. :) AMEN! X) after that, we went up the bus. hahas. everybody was very tired, so most of them slept. hahas. :) including me too, i think. then we reached a school in BAN PHUR. hahas. the school was ok loh.... the toilet was kind of dirty. hahas. but what can you expect of a undeveloped city. hahas. we had a team introduction then ice breakers by adam and isaac. we played the game, "fire, hunter, earthquack". you know these game right? hahas. :) the squirrel and the tree thingi. hahas, :) we also had the "prodigal son" skit. :) then we had a special item by shu shyan and adam. shu shyan sang "here i am to worship" in thai and adam played the guitar. hahas. :) then we splitted to our workshops. hahas. im in english with anna and jolene lee. :) so we brought the students to a room. then we introduced ourself and also we taught them a very very famous verse from the bible. hahas. john 3:16. "for God so loved the world, He gave His one and only begotten son, that whosoever believes in Him will not perish but have eternal life." :) cos the class was kinda big, so we decided to split up to three groups. the smallest group, which is the girls will be mine. while the guys will seperate into two groups, one will follow jolene and one will follow anna. i didnt care what the other groups did. i just concentrated on mine. :) i took the oppountuinity to know them better and be their friends. so when i tell them the gospel, they will give more attention. and also they will remember me. hahas. :) i and the four girls took one classroom to ourself. i teached them some conversations. and called them to converse with their friend in front. we had fun knowing each other. i didnt have a watch with me, so i didnt know what time do i have to dismiss them. luckily, there were a few students from the other classes came to look inside our class. that's how i know i should be ending my lesson. so since its lunch time. i thought them "are you hungry?" and they nodded their head. so i said " OK! lets go for lunch!" hahas. :) nice dismissal huh?! hees. of cos, my dream job was to be a teacher. BUT that was when im still young and stupid. hahas. :) teachers is a not nice job. X) you have to have a lot of patience. what really surprises me was that the four girls that i taught actually accepted christ or wanted to accept. WOW! PRAISE THE LORD MAN! i took a photo with them. :) anws, we had our lunch there. and after that, we went to do some carolling, which was actually our rest / shower / dinner time. hahas. we went to this farm, that has orhirds and birds like turkeys. hahas. :) we went to the turkey farm first. enoch caught a turkey chick. it was really cute. :) hahas. babies are always cute, aren't they? :) while we were there, we also took some turkey feathers back. it was quite cool, then we went to the orhird farm. we played with the feathers and it all end up on priscilla. :) after the tour around the farms, we sang carols to the owner and also preach a little of Jesus' birth. we wanted to take a photo. we means me, michelle and priscilla. then i called adam to help us take. :) i gave him my cam and went to pose. hahas. :) after we took the photo, i went to see the photos. i found one photo of adam himself. hahas! i asked him he take this photo for? hahas. he said he was testing. hahas. :D after that, we went to a governer's house to carol. it was said that the governer has just accepted christ not longer ago. but we wasnt really sure if they went to any church or anything like that. they had a very nice and BIG house too. :)after that, we went to the village hall. we had our dinner there too. there was only meat and rice. so i took the meat and its gravy and some rice. the first mouth i took, my mouth was already spicy hot! i cannot imagine how am i going to continue eating this stuff. its crazily hot man. hahas. but i didnt have a choice, its either this or nothing so i just ate the rice and the meat and used the fastest speed to drink my water. X) after they knew that, we cant eat that spicy food. they fried eggs for us. hahas. :) YUM YUMM... :p after eating our dinner, we got down to work. we have a villageful of children to reach out to. and i also have the puppet show today. oh no! and i have a sore throat. was i dead or what?! but before the puppet show started and we were watching the rest of people performing. i saw my friends, which i was from the school we went just now. hahas. cool or what?! i also know more friends there too. hahas. when it was time for the puppet show, i was scared that i have no voice. but luckily, God helped me and i still have a little voice. "PHEW!" but the puppet show didnt really went right. i threw the 'snow' when it wasnt supposed too. oh no oh no! i felt so guilty. i think i kind of spoilt the show. sighs.... even with the incident, some people encouraged me. hahas. :) sighs... so guilty... :( then after that, i recieved some love letters.:) then we go back hotel and you know lah... * snores... *

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11th December 2006 - 18th December 2006 ** went to THAILAND!! **

** written on 20th December 2006 - 11.25pm **

heys guys! hahas. guess what?! i went to the mission trip and i saw the works of GOD! kinda. hahas. this is my first time there, Isaan, Udonthani. Udonthani is inside Isaan. and Isaan is inside Thailand. hahas. :) get it? hahas. nvm. dont bother. just continue reading. :) err. i went there, i knew a lot a lot of thai friends. such as POW, JIAB, BEW, CHERRY, JOY, MIU, NAM, ORO, NUT and many many more lah. hahas. :) and also i also get to know more christians friends, which is my mission team. hahas. have a lot lah. got bout 25 people, includong me. got cute guys too, you know. hahas. eg, adam X), aaron X), mark X). dun say liao. in case they think otw. hahas. also got irritating ones and they include adults kies. hahas. eg, auntie catherine ( cathy pacific) * pissed at the name * ( nok air ), enoch and joshua ( tiger airline ). hahas. those in bracket are their nick names. hahas. and if you noticed, they are all airlines. hahas. all these not create de. hahas. is other people, cant say, later they kanna. hahas. :) err.. then yupps. overall I HAD FUN! AND I CANT WAIT TO GO BACK! :) I MISS THEM!!! AND THE TIME I SPENT WITH MY MISSION TEAM! YOU GUYS ROCK MAN! <3 ya!
i think i should start typing what happened hoh. hees. ok.... here i go........

11th December 2006 - FIRST DAY!

hahas. today is the first day of mission trip! looking forward to the fun and the miracles too! hahas. :) i thought i will missed singapore as much as that time in taiwan. or even more cos my 'rents will not be with me. hahas. i thought i will crying in the plane and stuffs like that. but but but BUT!!!! surprisingly, when i reach the budget airport, i idnt even feel any 'dun bear to leave' feeling. hahas. and so, i know in my heart and brain that i DUN LIKE HIM ANYMORE! i said to myself, GOD and i have overcome another love hurricane. hahas. PRAISE GOD FOR THAT! hahas. :) am i happy or what?! hahas. the budget terminal isnt that budget. hahas. but the planes are really BUDGET. hahas. its real squeezy. hahas. :) then... the bangkok airport is really a total WOW!!!! :) its really big and cool. :) we walk around there and waited to be check in. the adults were doing to job. so we, which includes me, prisy, isaac, michelle, adam, mark and jolene tay went to explore. we went upstairs. hahas. and we played lame games. :) hahas. :X then when we were checked in. we have to wait for the plane, which was kinda delayed for some air con maintainance stuffs. so we waited. then we were so bored that we played uno, murderer, heart attack and at the end, some of the guys just started to stack the uno cards up. hahas. i tried with them too. hahas. it was hard. real hard. so i just took photos of them doing. hahas. :) we reach udonthani about 7 plus, sing time and 6 plus, thai time. hahas. :) we were greeted with flower necklace or whatever it is called. hahas. :) then i met some thai ppl. i didnt really know them but prisy and michelle know, so they started talking to them. then pow asked for my name. so i sadi my name, of cos. then se introduced herself. hahas. :) we had a lot of fun. :) we met up with pastor pracha, the pastor of Sajatharm Baptist church. and his staffs too. :) after that we had our dinner at one hotel and we went to the hotel we are staying, Srigrand Hotel. hahas. :) my roomie is shu shyan, so it wont be as crazy as i would with other ppl. hahas. :) but its ok. :D and POMM! i smashed down on my bed after i bathe. and snores..... hahas. :)

i will continue the rest tmr. 12.30 is quite late for a sick little girl. hahas. :) good nites then, muacks. stay for the next post kies. it will include more hot and juicy stuffs, or gossips for some people. anws, nites! :)]

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20th December 2006 - 11.14pm

hahas. hallos, long time never post le hoh. hees. i went to THAILAND mah. :) i went there to spread GOD'S WORD! hahas. HE rock man! hahas. :) err... i actually wanna write my post earlier. but i was too tired. i came back form thailand about midnight. and i didnt have a very nice sleep those few days either. hahas. err... ok.. the sleep is nice but not long enough. hahas. anws, since im back from thailand. im gonna share here, in this blog but... in the NEXT post. i may split into a few post if i have to sleep. hahas. cos im sick now. :( so sad huh. hahas. :) err.. but no need worry. im fine. with all those sleep and those YUCKY medicine. at least i think i should be well by then. hahas. :) ok.... i think i better hurry recall my thoughts and type down before i get chase to sleep AGAIN! hahas. :)

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4th December 2006 - 11.23pm

sighs. hahas. today i got this very big girl kuma kuma. its the mini toons tortoise. i like this say, you should know how it looked like already right. hahas. i actually wanted a meh meh ( sheep ) , so it can remind me of HIM. but even though, the giver its not HIM. so the meaning its different. if HE gives me a meh meh ( sheep ), and tell me to remember HIM every moment in time. i will be OMG! hahas. i think i will treat the toy like a precious jewel, not letting anyone touched it. hahas. anws, i wasthinking of a name for my kuma kuma. i wanted to smsed HIM and asked for his opinion in the name. but the problem here is that he hasnt top up his phone yet. agh.. so i just named it "Mi Mi"b. im going to think of a better name then i change. but anws, my shu shu gave me the toy today. he actually showed me one ernie and one pooh on the first day of the taiwan trip. he said that these were for them. i was like so pissed! THEN WHERE'S MINE?! i was so pissed that i kinda scolded him. i said "eee... YOU PIAN XING!!!!!" HMPH! then i walk back inside. i was in a terrible mood that day. i missed HIM sOO much, and whatsmore he haven smsed me for like 9 days. then i just said the phrase loudly in a cute cute way, not showing my anger and disappoinment. but in my heart, my heart was breaking into more and more pieces. my heart was already broken then, even before showing me the two gigantic toys. now with the toys, i began to grow a bigger wrath towards the two damn twins. hahas. im not in a very good mood myself today either. my com's internet doenst work. i just online for a while and found out that HE is NOT online. the main reason of onlining was actually to talk to HIM. and he is not online. whatever! i cant be borthered already. sighs. i think i now go do my exercise then i sleep le. nites.

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26th November 2006 - 3rd December 2006 * went to TAIWAN! *

** written on 4th December 2006 - 10.56am **

hallos. erm. before i continue i wanna sing a birthday song to my prEciOus little 'di di', BRYAN HO WEI JIE!!!

BLESSED BIRTHDAY TO YOU!
BLESSED BIRTHDAY TO YOU!
BLESSED BIRTHDAY TO BRYAN HO WEI JIE!
BLESSED BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DI DI! erm. you are finally thirdTEEN!! hahas. yi ji bang wor! \X/ forever!

hahas. ok, i shall continue. err.. where was i until ytd?? hmm...... oh ya. ok.. i'll write from the third day onwards. :)

28th November 2006 - THIRD DAY!

today was fantastic! kinda. great food and everything. later i'll fill you in. hmm. ok. we went to this Dongshan Station, Forest Bureau. the sceanary was a total 'WOW!!!' hahas. as a crazy photographer like me, i took like tons of photographs. hahas. but it was raining, sadly. so we all have to wear this poncho or take an umbralla. but for me, im very special. i wear both! hahas. our aim is to reach the place where we can see the Sinliao Waterfall. hahas. but before we can reach, we have to cross TWO suspension bridges. i actually thought it would be 'ai ya! chicken feet lah!' but when i was up there crossing, i was kinda scared. i was afraid of heights, totally terrified. and it is also very slippery. hahas. you can slip anytime if you are not careful. hahas. then after that, we went to this JhongShan Agriculture Leisure Area, where we maked our own tea moon-cake. YUM YUM! it was very nice, but it was very filling. i ate it and i cant eat my lunch anymore. hahas. but i still ate a little, then i went to take photos AGAIN! hahas. i took some abstract photos. hahas. then after that, i saw a little girl wild pig. we can carry it and take photo for free. so i obviously wanted. hahas. but when i carried it, it wriggled and made noises. i was so afraid. hahas. but i still managed to take a few pictures of it. but all of them, im really ugly, cos my smile is like. hahas. later you see for yourself. :) after that, we went to this place where they have all this jewellery. and some statues. outside of the place, there is the 12 chinese horoscope. i didnt like mine, chicken, cos its very ugly, but i still took one pic with it. i also took with the sheep ( MEH MEH! ) and the pig. i took more photos, where you can sit on the statues. erm, got sheep, got pig, still got all 12 de. hahas. after that, we went to this musuem. its about the past history, like the first human being, dinosaurs, fossils, so on and so forth. after that we went to eat our dinner. while we were waiting for our dinner, my aunt's friend came. she lives in Hualian. she and her relatives brought us to this restaurant. the food was FAB FABULOUS! there was salmon ( my FAV fish! ), there was steamboat, and there was even ABALONE!!! OMG! hees. i ate like dunno how many. hees. :) bout.. maybe 4 to 5? hahas. bout there. :) there were many more YUMMY! food, of cos. i ate until i think i can burst. even my tummy is starting to 'POP' out. hahas. then they brought us to this place that sells precious stones and blah blah. then maine's mum bought this hp accessory for me. cos they bought 3. then maine want one, her mum want one. and i also want one. but since they buy already. then nvm loh. hahas. then her mum asked me which one i was eyeing. so i just told her the circle, with the heart and the star. and she happily gave me that. she said we three eyed for different ones, so she gave me that one i've been eyeing for. hahas. after that, we went to my aunt's friend relatives shop. they sell healthy drinkable vineger. but i didnt drink any cos i was too busy using the com. they had two coms therre. so i and maine each had one. it was quite late then, maybe bout 8 to 9 plus. so then, calvin wasnt online. i knew that as a fact cos his mum would be back by then and so he cant used the com anymore. but i just tried my luck and see if he was online. and as i expected, he wasnt. even though, i talked to cai yun, albert GOR GOR and guo long. albert GOR GOR and guo long was kinda shocked when i put my dm that im in taiwan. they were like "you are in taiwan?" hahas. yupps. in taiwan. i took some time and posted one post in my blog. but they were about to go so i hurried and i for got to change the colour from black to white. my blog background is black. so my words cannot be read unless they select it. hahas, :) after that, we went back to our hotel and prepared for sleep. :)

29th December 2006 - FOURTH DAY!

we went to Taroko National Park. i took a lot of photos there but i didnt take any with me inside. hahas. the seanary was a total "WEE WEET!" after that, we went to this i dunno, beach? hahas. it has a very nice sceanary. the wind was nice, not very cold but the feeling when it blows in your hair is a total + + for that day's mood. hahas. :) it was very sunny, but it was cold. hahas. erm. over there, there was a lot of rocks and pebbles. i quickly went down and picked some. but therre were tOO much, so in the end i picked quite a lot. hahas it was very nice. there was one which is actually blue in colour. hahas, could it be the blue coral? hahas. impossible lah hoh. hehheh. :) then we went to this supermarket. hahas. i forgetten what it sells but i took a photo with a lady dress up in the 'ah mei zu' costume. hahas. 'ah mei zu' is a place where ladies take control. where the ladies get to picked the man they wanna marry. hahas. and the baby that they gave birth to, will inherit the lady's surname. hahas. then after that we went to eat a specially prepared organic dinner. hahas, it was YUMMY! hahas. i love the fish especially. then after that we went back to our hotel. the hotel has this hot-spring thing. oh gosh! it was real hot when i first reached inside. but gradually, it became just warm. because my body has noticed the change and it changed to a higher temperature. or whatsoever. hahas. when it was time to come up. i had a headache, the adults say it was because of the spring. it was hot and so the blood circulates faster. and the blood goes to my head. so i will get a headache. it is something like drinking wine. :) hehheh. then after that, i went to bathe and then slept. but before i sleep i still imagined if calvin was beside me, knowing i had a terrible headache. i really wonder what will he do. but i just imagined in the way i want it to be. him pulling me nearer to him. then he put my head on his chest there. i gave him a goodnight kiss then i went to sleep with a smile. hahas. :) aww... hee hee hee. but hoh, all this are actually a "she wang", which means impossible.

30th December 2006 - FIFTH DAY!

we went to this.. i also dunno what. but it was said to bring you wealth and luck if you walk in the dragon's mouth and out from the tiger's mouth. hahas. i took quite a number of photos here. erm. but over here, i also cried. i took a photo for my uncle, dad and grandad. the first photo, my dad claimed that the dragon's ear or horn cannot be seen. fine... i take again. then the next one, i took but it has a little of excess space at the side. i knew that there was excess space so just to keep my dad's mouth shut. i just said if you not satisfied then i go home edit for you. then he went on scolding me whatsoever thing. im not good at taking horizontal photos. i will tend to move a lot. and there he goes scolding me for whatever shity reason. if you read my previous post. i said that when im misunderstood or misjudged, and i get very angry, i will tend to cry. and whatsmore, i've been missing calvin. emotional breakdown. i cried. i wanted to go back to the coach asap. i mean who wants to be seen with wet, reddy eyes and red nose. so i hurried to go back then. its like i get another scolding from my mum saying that how i know that its our coach? DURR! i just know. then fine. since i cant get back to the couch, i went to the toilet. it was quite a far place from where i was. but i still gotta go. then i hurried there. then i saw this few guys from the same tour but different gp. they are quite cute. and they saw me lah. grr.. but i was too pissed to actually care. then after that i went to Chi Mei Musuem. i thought it is going to be borin. but when i go in. it was sOOOOO not. it was very.. very... nice. hahas. indescribable more like it. there was paintings and statues, everything that i've been wanting to look at. i even saw the steps of how a violin was made. WOW! i bet even calvin, a little violinist dunno how it was made. hahas. if im not wrong, it has 18 steps. hahas. or isit 19? around there lah. hehheh. then i saw this real beautiful violin. hahas. i was really very nice. everytime i see a violin, i cant help but think about HIM. him playing the violin. WOAH~~! hahas. :) it was real nice. then i went down where all the souveniers are sold. i saw this keychain, carved into a violin. hahas. i actually wanted to buy for HIM. but oh man! its too expensive le. i asked my mum if i can buy one for my friend ( which was actually calvin. ). she sayed "can. if its for yourself. but friend, its a little too expensive." i was like "orh ok. nvm then." then i saw a book where all the paintings, art and stuffs found in the musuem are inside. i wanted to buy. but it was like 10 bucks! its very expensive. so i said nvm. but i showed it to my mum. hahas. she actually wanted to buy. but i think it is me. :)

1st December 2006 - SIXTH DAY!

i went to this... i also dunno where. but i took some photos there. hehheh. then i saw this cardboard, printed on them was this beautiful words. hahas. :) so i took a photo of them. :) then after that we went to eat our lunch. after that we went to a temple. it is only walking distance from the restaurant from the temple. but i didnt went in the temple. we went to take photos.and while posing. i kinda fall. and ta da! got another wound on my left leg. and it huts a lot a lot a lot a lot. there was even blood. i didnt cry of cos. but it was really painful. then after that, we went to this place where they sell royal jelly, honey, and everything that gotta do with bees and its honey. hahas. i also took a photo with a group of them. after that, we went to the peacork farm. hahas. there was a lot of beautiful peacorks. hahas. after that we went to a strawberry farm and after that, we went to have our dinner and after that we went to the Feng Chia Night Market. hahas. HOORAY!!!! hahas. over there, i bought 3 jeans and 6 socks. i actually wanted a shoe. but there wasnt my size. damn it man. hahas. it was so nice lah. boo hoo hoo. hehheh. then i also eat the famous "chou dou fu", which is the smelly tofu. hahas. it wasnt very smelly lah actually. it only smells like fresh shit. HAHAS!!!! :) but it tastes nice lah. really. not bad at all. hong kong's smelly tofu is even worse. roads afar also can smell the smelly smell. hahas. :)

2nd December 2006 - SEVENTH DAY!

today was OMG!!! hahas. i went to the Leo Village Theme Park. it was really very fun. the first ride i sat was the ring of fire. you know a ring right. its a total circle. yupps. the roller coaster goes round and round and round. 360 degrees. not only that. its very high. i dunno how high lah but.... its VERY HIGH! then i and maine sat on that. i was already freaking out when i was queueing up. then when ITS MY TURN! OMG!!! i sat in the roller coaster. maine sitting opp me. and two guys sitting each beside of us. hahas. then i was real scared. then i cry. hahas. pathetic. i also dunno cry for what. my mum was beside me. as in like outside of the roller coaster. she knew i was very scared. she kept asking me if i can or not, if cannot then come down. i replied back that i can. jia you jia you jia you. hahas. inside my heart i tell myself that i need to oercome my fear. hahas. i needa grow up. hahas. jia you jia you. must be brave. wiping my tears, i tell the guys beside us, that they will regret sitting here cos i will scream like shit. hahas. the guy beside maine said nothing but the guy next to me was like "i wont regret but just dun cry." hahas. then maine was like "ya loh ya loh." hahas. :) "PEET!!!" the sound went off. it means that the roller coaster is going to move off soon. as soon as the sound came off. i screamed. HAHAHAS! then it started to move. then i screamed and screamed and screamed and screamed and screamed and screamed and screamed and screamed! hahas! i kept my eyes close and i hugged the 'protector' very tightly then suddenly it stopped. i fell my feet was in the air. i was shocked. i was sOO stupid to open my eyes, hahas, i opened my eyes then i saw i all the things below then i screamed. hahas. :) we ate our lunch in there. then after that, we went to Chung-Hwa Pui Shiuo Musuem. hahas. then its like they help you check your feng shui. hahas. then i check mine. they say i sometimes very stubborn. hahas. then my brain is actually very useful, very clever. hahas. then i have a loy of friends. then when in times of trouble, there will always be somebody to help me. hahas. but the more people i meet, the more 'xiao ren', which is hypocrites. then, my wealth is actually not bad. but i cant control it. then i will work better in a big company, cannot in small company. hehheh. my job hoh, meet more people better. hehheh. then my marriage is not bad cos i listen to my husband de. then i also gave him luck in his business or whatsoever. hahas. HEY HEY GUYS! good catch! HAHAS! then i tried HIS. i know his birthday date mah. hehhehs. then i asked for him. and you know what the feng shui lady say. she said that he has a bad temper and he is very self centered. he has a lot of friends too. hahas. all these are so true man. hehhehs. then his wealth is quite bad. he cannot control his wealth. then his marriage is very bad. cos of his bad temper and his self centered-ness. OH MAN!!! sad... hehhehs. then after that, we had our dinner then we went back to the hotel. then its like we go to the Shihlin Tourism Night Market. we only have one hour lah. hahas. we didnt even buy anything. just one chocolate milk ice kachang. hahas. its actually called chocolate milk ice. hahas. but i dun think you guys know what is it. but its really very nice. hehhehs. :) then we go back and sleep and imagined if HE is beside me.. :)

3rd December 2006 - LAST DAY!!

i dunno should i be happy or sad. i cant bear to leave taiwan but i want to go back to singapore. hahas. :) erm. i woke up at like 4.20am plus. i have to be down, ready with my luggage at the lobby by 5.30am. hahas. :) very early hoh. i took a few photos with the two cute cute boy boy. then went in to the plane and watch a movie called 'love @ first note'. its a cantonese movie. but its very nice. its like a musical but there is also drama and hotties. hehheh. erm. then after that, i slept. :) then i reached singapore lo! hehheh.

hey guys! thats all for the trip. hehheh. some photos are just kinda stupid and ugly too. hahas. :) bear with it kies. hee hee hee. thats all lo!

PSST! CALVIN!
i got somethings for you! :) hehheh. asked me out lo. then i can give you. but i may seperate them into two. one is a sourvenier then the other is your christmas pressie. :)

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26th November 2006 - 3rd December 2006 * went to TAIWAN! *

** written on 3rd December 2006 - 9.04pm **

hallos. hees. erm. im not really gonna say every single detail of the whole trip cos, erm. hehheh. i kinda forget. hees. i have stm de. bleahs. but i will try to remember for your sake. hehhehs. but it is going to take maybe days to write everything down. hahas. but if you want details, you can asked me out, smsed me, call me, msn me if im online that is. hahas. its kinda too much to actually to put down in words. but i think a lot of my friends will be wondering what i bought. hahas. i mean ITS TAIWAN, the shopping fantasy for teenagers like me. hees. to say the truth, not much, not much at all. just a few things that i think might shocked you out. hees. :) hahas. curious what are the things? read on then. hahas. and also TAG your SHOCKNESS too. hehheh! X) erm. let me give you guys some details of the trip lah hoh.. hahas. :) i so good right? ** PUKE!!!! ** :)

erm, lets start from the first day hao le. im gonna start lo! shh.. hehheh.

26th November 2006 - first day!

actually today also doest count a day cos by the time we reached taipei its already 6 plus coming to 7pm le. but before that, we of cos have to check in. my mum went to buy her cosmetic while i was drinking my "coffee bean" pure vanilla ( one of my FAV drink. ) with my aunt, uncle and grandparents. erm. in case you wonder why is my grand'rents with me. cos, they are all going! hahas. :) anws, my dad followed my mum. after i drank my pure vanilla, i went to walk around. i saw sOOO many cosmetics. from compact powder to blusher to mascara to eye shadow to eye liner to gloss and glitter. GOSH! i immediately tried on the blusher, gloss, glitter. WOW! i gotta say i was a total glamour! hees. i wanted to take a close up photo. but nah.... scared people say. hees. but i still took some photos in the airport. it was christmas season then so, there was tons of christmas deco everywhere. i saw this swinging chair. i saw a perfect picture. hahas. i mean, cos i is a 'photographer' so i can see if this is going to be a nice spot to take a photo. and i saw it there. so i called my 'rents to stop and i said i wanted to take photos here! hahas. they were 'fine...' it was a not bad scene, so DURR! we took photos. then after that we rushed to board the plane. then i changed seat with my granny and took the window seat. hehheh. i took many beautiful photos. not me but the sceanary. cos my time in the plane is from 2pm to 6plus. then i took the blue sky when i first sat in the plane. but after the movie, 'my super ex-girlfriend'. i looked out the window and i was like "WOW!' PRETTY!" that was the first time i saw a sun set in a plane. hees. i took photos of it and i uploading it in this post. its very pretty. satisfactory guranteed. heees. and whatsmore its my photography skills. dun play play. hehheh. erm. but then, i was really very sad. i mean, i will be leaving singapore for like 8 days. sighs. even if calvin top up his card. i also will not be able to smsed him or call him. sighs. i was real devastating. i wanted to cry but i cant. my 'rents are with me. sighs. then in the plane, when i listening a song by 'The Wreckers'. i looked out of the window and tears just started to flow...i know the reason of cos. i missed HIM too much. i didnt want to be like this. i wanted to leave all this behind in singapore and bring a free and open heart to taiwan. but it seems it wasnt left behind. i kept wondering if calvin was next to me now, how will it be like? awkward? or will it be a very nice loving scene. i dun know, and i will never find out. then its like. i was in a total blurness of feelings. oh ya! and..

i had my mens today, which is on the FIRST DAY!!!
FIRST DAY OF MENS = FIRST DAY OF TAIWAN TRIP! pathetic or what?!

so i was like in total bad mood. feeling sad, having to leave HIM. boo hoo hoo. then after that, i had an arguement with my aunt. we alighted the plane so obviously have to collect our luggage. my aunt called me to take THREE trolleys at once. i was like 'right....' and so i went and take. i tried to take THREE trolleys at once. but i cant control it. so i just took 1 and went back. then my aunt was like babbling. i was in total bad mood. so i yelled back. i didnt care bout the others. it was her fault not mine. i have this wierd thing in me. whenever im very angry, especially when im misjudged or misunderstood. i will get very angry and i will cry. and that was what happened. i actually wanted to cry. but i controlled. i dun want people to judge me as a crybaby on the first day. i controlled very hard. my eyes were already wet. but i controlled. i controlled and controlled. i was thinking of how good will it be if calvin was here. at least i will have a shoulder to cry on, or at least, he might be able to help me with the trolleys. but he obviously wasnt there. he is in another country called singapore while im in a country called taiwan. we went to eat our dinner or so called supper. i didnt ate much. ONE was cos i didnt really have the appetiete, i was tOO sad to eat. and TWO was cos i wanted to slim down. i didnt want to eat much. then after that,, we went back to our hotel room. i was in bed after i bathe, ready for sleep. kinda. i and charmaine were like discussing how good will it be if both our princes are here with us. sighs. we both missed our darling. hers is PIG PIG, mine is MEH MEH ( sheep ). sighs. half way hearing a F.I.R song, i kinda cried silently. maine already slept. sighs. i dried my tears and went back to sleep. sighs. bad day i got huh. :(

27th November 2006 - second day!

today was quite fun. i had to wake up at bout 6am, which was totally crazy to me. but i had a wonderful breakfast. i drank this strawberry yakult. and I LOVED IT! i HATE strawberries. but, i like the strawberry yakult. hahas. what a weird girl i am. then we went to the bus. it was ok. was comfortable enough. then since we were so sleepy, we slept t in the bus. but i couldnt sleep. there was this two little boys making a lot of noise. like 'chi ki chi ki chi ki BOOM!!!! chi ki chi ki chi ki BOOM BOOM BOOM!!!' i was like agh... i stared at them. but they still continued. agh.... i on my mp3 loud, but i STILL can hear their voices. grrr...... i get very grumpy when i dun have enough sleep. then after that, maine's granny asked me if i had a good sleep. i was like 'no... the two boys were like so noisy." i said it quite loudly. loud enough for them, who are sitting next to me to hear. their 'rents heard. DURR! i said it very loudly you know. hahas. erm then ya loh. then we went to a bridge and a place i also dunno call what. hahas. but i took a number of pictures there, over there i bought.. errr.. ONE very cute PENCIL and TWO MAI YA TANG. i cannot buy one only cos its not worth it. so i bought two, i was thinking to maybe give one to maine but nah... she wont wanna eat. she on diet. so im bringing it back to singapore and give HIM, since he likes jay chou so much. then we also went to taipei 101 building. it was terribly expensive. hahas. then at night, we went to this leisure farm. it was farm-like. we played many things. we even made our own 'tang yuan' hahas. i got a few photos of that. hahas. then its like we wrote our wishes on this lantern, which is going to fly up to the sky. it has a legend that whatever ou write on it will be read by God and he will grant them. i know its not true. but just for the fun of it. but i really hope it will come true. hahas. i think i wrote bout 6 wishes on it. hahas. if im not wrong i wrote "Lord's word will be spread to the whole world.", "More people believed in God.", "HIM to like me ONLY.", "HIM to treat me better.", "HIM not to treat me hot and cold" and "HIM to kissed me." hahas. i cant think of anything anymore, so i just wrote that, the last one i mean. hahas. then i played BIG bubbles. hahas. :) then after that i slept lo. hees. the bed was so big! i and charmaine each had one. then when it was time for lights off. i imagined if calvin was beside me. how fortunatate and happy will i be. hahas. :)

hehs! i spent bout 2 hours writing all these down. hahas. its already 10.42pm already. i had a very long day today. and so, i think im going to sleep. hahas. nites. :) i dun wanna have BIG eye bags or not i'll get ugly. hees. nites. :x i'll continue the rest in my next post alright? pai seh wor. ( see below. calvin.)

PSST! CALVIN!
actually there are a few reasons why i dun wan to stead with you. some of them i already told you, bout the other girls and the way you treat me and stuffs. but thats not all. it is because that i will overseas for bout like 2 weeks. and i have many activities too. im scared i dun have the time. i cant cope. i do have time but, i cant always go out. im not allowed too. then i actually wanted to leave everything here. but it seems that you are tOO strong. you kept following me wherever i go. that was if im still single but if im attached, i'll be like i dun wanna leave singapore and i will be very sad. and maybe you so too. i dunno. i will tOO desperate to come back than enjoy my holiday there. and i will be leaving singapore on 11 Dec again. and only will be back on 18 Dec. i will be there spreading God's word. and i dun want my desperateness to be with you affect my appearence in spreading the Lord's word. hope you'll see this and understand. even though, i still like you. :)

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3rd December 2006 - 8.56pm

HALLOS EVERYONE! IM BACK FROM TAIWAN!!! hees. got MISSED ME?! hehheh. whatever is your ans, I MISSED YOU GUYS MAN!!!! hahas. hehhehhhs. oh ya! before i forget, erm... you know the previous posts i said that calvin never smsed me? yupps, it was total a misunderstanding. it was actually because he was using hi-card, which is also known as top-up card. erm, yupps. that i thought he is usibng the starhub student plan cos my now hp number is almost the same as his. kinda lah. hees. erm, anws,


IM BACK LO!!!!

hees. missed you guys but i missed taiwan too. hees. boo hoo hoo. hahas. i think i missed here more than there lah. hee hee. cos...

HERE, THERE IS YOU GUYS! love ya lots! muackies. hees. X)

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28th November 2006

hahas. i miss YOU and everybody!!!!!!! i in tai wan now. miss you guys until vry in pklane and in room. so sad............ buais.

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25th November 2006 - 12.29pm

PHEW! im full, very full. i just ate my lunch, which was nasi lemak. i was hungry so i just ate all up, knowing that its very high in fats. no....how am i going to face him and my friends after i come back from taiwan? taiwan is like full of food and more food. i now very scared i will grow like 5 pounds after i come back. oh no... sighs. after i come back from taiwan, im going to catch a movie with my darlings for sure, no doubt. cos that time i already had this 'burn' on my face so i didnt go to watch 'the grudge 2'. and i wonder if the rest went to watch. i not sure. but because of me not going, jolynn and cai yun and also wai ying didnt went. aww... im so guilty yet touched. hahas. i now very bored. dunno what to do. so i just thought i just spent my time writing all these crap here. hees. hmmm.. i was thinking back at what happened ytd. and i think im a little foolish. sighs. i think he has already forgotten bout me. so why should i actually bother about him anymore. sighs. but thinking at this point, i just think that sometimes i just cant control myself to think at how he treated me. how good and also how bad. he tells his friend that im his perfect girl yet he tells me that <______> is his perfect girl. sighs. what does this all mean? he wanted to make me jealous? what a laugh! making your perfect girl jealous. stupid.

i once thought you are were my prince, my perfect guy but now, i dun think so. :(

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25th November 2006 - 12.04am

gonna missed you guys tmr. aww.. im going to taiwan for like 8 days! and im in short of clothing! ah... hahas. anws. during my trip there, i will remember you guys de. especailly you i guess. sighs. ok whatever. i'll say that later. hmm. anws, erm from tmr afternoon until 3rd dec late afternoon, dun sms me or call. cos 1, i will not ans. 2, if you guy or you call at night, my dad will know cos he will use my SIM card, as there is auto roaming. erm yupps. that all. hees. oh ya. lets talk about ytd, which was like 9 minutes ago. :)

hmm. ytd was.. i dunno. a mixture of feelings i guess. it has smiles and laughter yet it also has tears and sobs. ytd was my school's open house. i went, cos mr gan called me the day before and asked me to come. so i just went. i was scared that i might see him in sch yet im excited that i might be able to see him again. sighws. totally pathetic of me huh. still waiting for him. it has been more than a week since he smsed me or replied my smses. to be exact, it has been 8 days. excluding today. but i doubt he will smsed me today anws. so i might just as well count today, that makes it 9 days. 9 days = 216 hours = 12960 mins = 777600 secs. sighs. thinking of it, i wonder i even lived man. 9 days! WOAH! impressive. my frens tried calling him and his phone seem to just cut off our phone. sighs. and all the smses i send all went in to thin air. sigh sigh sighs... anws, when i walk into school today, alone, i looked around as i step into the gate to find my click but they are no where in sight. then while looking, i saw calvin and his click. OMG! hahas. a OMG with excitement and a terrified heart. hahas. then when i walk through the canteen (kinda), they went "woooooo~~~~~ calvin calvin calvin" i heard. DURR... they were loud alright. only the deaf cant hear them. then i was like went totally red then i picked u speed then when i walk towards the toilet. hahas. i went to the toilet to calm myself down. pathetic freak, i know. since its very late now, i think i shall make it short. almost through out the time there, he avoided me, or rather, we avoided each other. sighs. but i tried to like dun avoid him so i went to where he was, either in the shop or the barbeque pit. but after a while he will go to the another place. like if i was at the bbq pit, he would stay in the shop then when i am at the shop, he would go somewhere else or he would go to the bbq pit. grr. i was kinda pissed. then the guys took my hp and took a photo of calvin. i thought he did a act 'cool' action but when i looked at it nearer. it was not. it was BOTH of his middle finger. im sure that he know that that is my hp taking the photo. and he did that acton. what does it mean? i dun wanna think about it. tears are starting to well. sighs. whatever. i delete it anws. just to let you know.anws, then bout 1 he and his click went home or rather i think, they went out. then i just hanged out with my click loh. then after a while, cai yun was like "you looked gloomy without him." i was like "are you sure?". i was indeed sad but i didnt expect it to be written on my face. sighs. then after calvin and his click went, i and my click took so much photos. ( they are all below. ) oh ya. i forgot to tell you guys i changed my hair-do. but i didnt cut my hair.

then its like we went home. i was pretty gloomy, i dunno why.. i felt like crying but the tears doent seem to come out. until dinner, when i was eating my dinner, my 'rents have a badminton game with their friends. i wasnt in the mood. so i didnt go. they need to leave early. so i agreed to go home alone later. then when that are out of the door, i have the urge to cry and the tears seem so much that i cant control any longer. so i thought since my 'rents have already left. i rushed to the toilet and cried. i didnt know what or who i was crying for. it just flowed out. in order to not make it obvious, cos when i cry, my eyes and nose will go reddish. so i splashed water on my face to make the rest a little redder and water so the tears would be covered up by the water. sighs. then after that when i went home, i was hearing the song "juan lian" bu F.I.R. when i reached my door step, my eyes pricked but i managed to control it but when i reach the inside of my house. i felt so weak, so lost. so i sat down on my kitchen chair. and the tears started welling in my eyes. and 'drip drip drip', it all dropped down. sighs. i think i should run off and head to sleep. sighs. good nites. wish me luck. and also strength to overcome his stuffs okie? thankies. will appreciate all those. :'(

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22th November 2006 - 1.00am

my mum just came in. she asked me if i really want to be an night cat. sighs. its already one in the morning. fine.. im tired. but i mean who is going to care if i turned into a night cat? who is going to care if my face got worst? WHO CARES?! except me and my family. what about you?! yupps, im talking about you, cal. i doubt you will even care even if i dissapeared from this world. sighs. its been.. 6 days. you havent talk to me ever since that day when you said you wanted to get closed to me today in the cinema. sighs.. now i cant go cos of my face. i bet you are happy knowing this. dun need to hug this fat, ugly little hag. sighs. whatever is your feelings to me are, im going to survive. i will be as strong as i can. and im sure i will walk through this thunder storm with my head up. sighs.... :(

sighs. do you know that you were the first guy i like that likes me back in return too? sighs. but it all turned out terrible. sighs. you liked me for the wrong reasons. and i like you for.. i dunno. for who you are. but can you please change a little. for me? sighs. you said you are going to treat me better. sighs. BETTER?! who are you kidding? does 'better' includes not smsing, not replying, not caring about me? NO~~~~! sighs. i still like you but liking you hurts my heart a lot. sometimes too much. one day you treat me like im your princess and the next? sighs. like we are total strangers. sighs. why must you bring agony to me? sighs. :'( can we even have an happy ending or has it been thrown in the dump? sighs... :(

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21th November 2006 - 1.03am

sighs. ever since sun, my face, around the mouth and nose area had this 'burn', i dunno how to phrase it out. the skin starts to peel and its darker than other parts of the face. sighs. i look so ugly! and it hurts a little too. its like its very dry. i dunno. i dun think any body would wanna see my face now. sighs. sian. i think its because of the Clearasil Ultra. i tried only recently, the day before my class chalet then i never used it until i came back from my class chalet. i used then i dunno. cos i used the deep pore gel wash. i think cos i washed with the gel wash then i brushed my teeth. cos its DEEP PORE so i think the toothpaste foam went in my pore and the toothpaste was a little too strong. so it caused this dry skin peeling thing. sighs. i could lived with this. BUT im going to watch 'the grudge 2' with my frens and also calvin, if calvin even reply my sms. agh.... for three days excluding today. i already picked out the clothes im going to wear. then just now, at bout 8 plus, wei wei shu shu came back. i waited for him, more like it. :) i asked him bout my face. he is a doctor for your info. then he said its kinda serious. AND IT WILL TAKE AT LEAST ONE WEEK TO RECOVER! one week!!!!! OMG! * fainted. sighs. i need it to heal by this tmr! but he say even if it heal fast, it can only heal by fri. at least by this fri! NOoooooooooo~~~~~~~~~~ :( sigh ya ya... he say i have to wait for the skin to peel finish. OMG!!!! * cries. then he gave me this little container and called me to dab it on the affeted area with clean hands. sighs.... no more movie liao... sighs.... then after consulting wei wei shu shu, i went home. with my grandpa tagging along. the adults claimed that it is very dark, so fine.... tag loh. i dun really care. sighs. then while i was walking home, i was thinking about how terrible it is going to be cos i cant go to watch 'the grudge 2'. sighs. but as i was thinking, i figured out that God must have a reason for letting me have this peeling thing so i cant go to watch the movie. i began to see at the other angle, the positive side. God didnt want me go cos there might be calvin there. he wanted me to stay strong and not melt in his eyes then forget me again for another dunno how many days. hmm... hahas. i think God has a good plan laid ahead for me. he made calvin come into my life to mould me to who he wants me to be. hahas. i get it now. calvin is a obstacle. hahas. hmm.. i think God has laid a wonderful future ahead of me... thankies God. i love you. mUaCks. :X

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16th November 2006 - 10.42pm

*sobs. why cant i have a day that end happily? why cant i have a night that i happily smiled to sleep? sighs. i today was in a real happy mood cos he said he is going to watch 'the grudge 2' with me. he actually wanted me alone to go. hahas. cos he just got the urge to hug me. :D he also dunno why. hees. :) hahas. it made me smile and laugh the whole day. then i just said that at most we sit tgt lo. hees. hahas. then i also told him that whoever that sit next to me have to prepare their ears and hands. cos i will scream and will hold their hands. and he replied that he confirm sitting next to me. hees. :) OMG! and ytd he said i was the one he love not <______>. hahas. :) i laugh and smiled until cos i want to conference cos im very happy. and also tell them bout wed's movie thing. but how i know, half way when i was conferencing, my mum came in and said its already 10.30pm and i should put down the phone. but only then cai yun called in. then i have to tell them that im putting down. then my mum yelled at me saying that she is going to confiscate my hp FOR ONE WEEK! they have a stupid damn rule that i have to put my hp outside by 10pm. but come on... so i dun care. only when they asked me to put outside then i will put outside. my hp is my life alright! i used my hp to communicate with calvin. without it, i will probably die. sighs. now, i also dunno if she really mean what she say. im really scared that they will see my smses. if they see, im totally busted and will die right at that moment. sighs. so i just have to off my hp cos i locked my hp. it needs a pin code in order to go in. but its real easy to break code if you know me well. sighs.

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15th November 2006
**written on 17th November 2006 - 3.21pm**

i dun wanna say too much but one very nice thing he said was that im the one he love, not <______> and its time for him to change to fit in my prince image. awwwww....... so sweet lah. hahas. :) anws, see my next post. its even awwwwwwwww............... hahas. :D

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14th November 2006
** written on 17th November 2006 - 1.51pm **

hahas. today was so kinda sad but fun! i woke up and found out that the guys are going to go home, which includes calvin. sad... sighs. then suddenly cai yun told me that i looked a little gloomy without calvin around. hahas. i was like 'oh.. really? hees. :)' i was sad that's for sure but i didnt expect it to be written on my face that obvious. after that, ansley and yong seng came. we thought that the cleaners are coming so we hurriedly clear up the chalet. hees. we watched the floor, cleared the rubbish, everything. it was real smelly and dirty too. hees. after that i, jolynn, ellen, yu hang, ansley, yong seng and wei jie went to downtown east. we went there for the archade. the rest stayed in the chalet. when we reach the archard. it seems like only yu hang which was playing. he played initial D. WOAH!!! he played very well. his first game was so funny. when the race start, yu hang didnt start racing. he just sat there and looked at the screen. i, jol and ellen thought the machine couldnt work. hahas. we were like asking what happened why cannot move? hahas. in the middle of our questions,yu hang suddenly raced. he ZOOMED! i was like. "CHEY!!! yu hang act yu hang act!" hahas. yu hang so act lah. he purposely let his opponent go first then he raced and caught up with him and WON! i was like 'right....' hahas. then after many many games, we went macs and eat. we ate there. and then suddenly ellen asked me while we are queueing up for the food. she asked me if i and calvin stead le mah? i was like stunned. that was a unexpected questions. hahas. i just told her no, we never stead. but he asked me for stead 3 times but i rejected him even though i like him cos he likes 3 girls at one time. sighs. then when we wsere on the way back to the chalet. i and jol went to the toilet while the guys and ellen went to the supermarket and bought flour and eggs! hahas. oh man. then when we go back to chalet, i changed into my ytd clothes which was already dirty. we agreed that we play flour only cos eggs are smelly. then everybody mixed their portion of flour with water, so it will end up gooey gooey. GROSS! hees. it is even grosser if the flour-ie goo end up our your hair and that was what happened. i put the goo on yu hang then yu hang out on mine. then i went in the toilet to wash away then he throw an egg at me. cos he wanted to take revenge then its like so smelly and funny. then in the end we were all so soapy and smelly. then we all went to bathe then we went to eat and then we saw kenneth and his class. :) then we went to eat. we bought jolly shandy then we go back to the chalet. we all drank already then jol say she want to bathe. i already bathe already after we played flour. so i followed jol cos i also wanna poo. hees. :) then she bathe, i poo. :D after that when we went back, the others were playing true or dare. so i joined in. i just join then the bottle faced towards me. hahas. then yu hang asked me true or dare. then at that moment, calvin smsed me. hahas. then everybody were like "ooooo..." then yan ting asked me "do i like calvin?" as my true question. then i just smiled. more like i cant help stop smiling. :D then i just turned around and smile. then everybody was like 'ai yo... this means like lah...' hahas. then i blushed until i myself feel so hot. hees. :) then its like. the next true they asked me 'did calvin asked you for stead?' before i even say anything ellen told them got, whatsmore its 3 times. hees. then everybody was like WAH!!! hahas. then i just say why i rejected. i just say that cos he say that <______> is his perfect girl so he concentrate mostly on her. then i overheard guo long saying that calvin told him a total different story. hees. :) then its like after that, we sleep le. hees. :D

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13th November 2006
* written on 15th November 2006 - 9.13pm *

BEFORE CHALET START.

hahas. today is the first day of the class chalet! OMG! hahas. im so excited. hahas. today i woke up so early. i meet jol at my house downstairs at 8.30am. but in the end, yun call us meet at pending lrt station. so ok loh. we went there our own seperate ways. my bag was SO heavy! hahas. i thought of carrying on my shoulder cos it has a strap so it make it look like a sling bag. but when i fixed it when i was rushed to go pending station. IT WAS SPOILT! ah... so i just have to carry on my hand. OMG! HEAVY! i dunno what i carry also. i didnt put in my water bottle but all my nessities and its already so heavy! oh man. sighs. so i carry to pending station. then when everybody which include jol, ting, yun and wai ying. then we were thinking of how to get to sheng siong to get the otahs and maybe eat there too. i remembered that i forgotten to take the sausages and margarine and also the ice lemon tea that my mum wanted to give me for the chalet. then i and jol hurried back to my house and get. it was real heavy! we both take each side. hahas. then its like when we were on the way to my house, jol also remembered that she forgotten to bring the paper plates and spoons and cups. we were like 'ER OH...' hahas. then we tried to call yu hang to bring. so we called them to meet at sheng siong. i also called guo long to come because there are a lot of things to take and 5 girls cannot hardly carry without falling. so, i called guo long and called him to call more ppl. i had calvin in mind. but i didn't dare to call him. so i called guo long instead. hees. then we all went to farhan's house to give his dad all the food. cos he is driving doug, farhan, sanjex, wen hao and yong sheng there. so he could bring the food in his car. hees. after that,

TRIP TO THE THE CHALET.

we went to chua chu kang lrt station to find the rest. we all took the mrt. we kinda clink in the the same place but not the same but kinda scattered. hahas. we were quite far too. hahas. i was at one door and he is on my left-side's door. hahas. we were playing then we i got to the middle of the two doors i and him was. he was kinda behind me. then we played and played. until bout the last few stops when ppl are starting to get lesser. we sat down. not all of cos. there isnt so much space. then i kinda feel bored so i took out my thai language paper and learned. hahas. that's where the fun come in. we looked at the thai paper and used it. after the thai language fun. some one asked me if im really going to the mission trip. its written on the paper. hahas. then i said 'ya. so whoever is my boyfriend in the holis is going to be very poor thing cos he is going to miss me like crazy!' HAHAS! then someone said bout me and calvin. they were said something along the lines of "heys! calvin! you like isabel hoh?!" hahas. then according to them, he blushed from his skin colour of black to red. hees. i was like dun bluff. hees. i kinda blush too. hees. :) then when we arrived at pasir ris mrt station. we kind of got lost. we did not know how to get to the chalet. we ran here and there, walk here and there under the hot, scorching sun. WITH OUR HEAVY BAGS TOO! but still we got our way to the chalet! :)

AT THE CHALET. - beach

we went there and put our stuffs down and went to the beach. we expect it to be clean and so, we thought we could play there for days. hahas. but how we know that it was a total nightmare. it was VERY DIRTY! then i and wai ying went back to the chalet to take a 'bath'. but we 'bathe' at the swimming pool. the sprayer that was for the swimmers to spray themselves before they go down to the pool. the others went to rent bikes. when i and wai ying went to find them. some already went biking. cai yun and jolynn waited for us. as i and cai yun didnt know how to bike. we didnt want to bike. so we went to the beach. wai ying and jolynn followed suit, even though they wanted to bike but it will be no fun without us. hees. so, i, yun, ting, jol, wai ying, jia yi, ellen, valerie, yu hang, wei jie, wen xue, yong seng went to the beach. even though it was dirty. i and jol found a spot that isnt that dirty. we played there. ellen they all went to play cards at a table, while my click went to the water. ting buried my legs in the sand. and i took a photo of it. hees. it so hilarious. hees. :) then we found a cleaner spot and we played there. whn we were having fun, ellen's click came. i, jol and cai yun was walking into the water when WE SAW A FROG SWIMMING! hees. we screamed and ran back to the sand. hees. :D when we had enough fun, we started to move off. i , jol and wai ying was far ahead from the rest. then we saw calvin and his click riding on their bikes. we played tricks on them like blicking the path. hahas. then there was one time when we blocked. feng khai was riding towars us. and HE FALL AGAINST WAI YING! hahas. sigh yos..... hees. :) we played until they rode off. so we went back to the chalet.

AT THE CHALET. - water fight and BBQ

it was so fun. after all of them came back, we played water fight. i dunno who started it first. but ya. we fill up bottles of water and splash water at each other until we were all soaky wet. yu hang's click bought some water guns. and sprayed at us. we splashed and splashed. hees. we splashed until the floor was filled with water. it was so much fun until wai ying's mum came. she saw us playing with water and nag about our behaviour. she say something like i'm gonna take photos and sent it to the principle blah blah blah. then when mrs yip came for the BBQ dinner. wai ying's mum told her too. she said that it was mrs yip fault that she allowed us to have this chalet and stuffs. and also for not taking care of us. i mean HEY! SHUT UP WILL YOU?! she kept on nagging and nagging. non-stop. then some of us, the 'Princess Hours' freaks were watching the show but mrs yip as talking to us. we half listened to her and half listened to the show. when wai ying's mum OFF the TV. DAMN HER MAN! she claimed that we should respect our teacher by listening to her and looking at her. oh man! give us a break. and she kept on using the PSG name to threatened us. saying she's going to give the 'rents this photos to see and also the principle and the teachers too. she's mad man! whatever. dun want to talk about her le. lets say what happened at the BBQ. we had no sissors so i called calvin to open the sausages. he needed tissues too. so he helped me open the sausages, while i helped him find the tissues. hees. :) he opened a hole, but its not big enough so i used my hand to opened it bigger. calvin and guo long sat on the metal chairs and looked at us BBQ while most of them were upstairs arguing with wai ying's mum. then, its like when i called him to open another sausage packet. i asked him how he open. then guo long said that he used his teeth to bite open. i was like 'GROSS!' i looked at my hands, I TOUCHED HIS SALIVA! hahas. :) but then i was like 'ai yah.. whatever i dun care. hees.' hahas. :) then ya loh.. we had fun until very late. i dun want to say so much in detail cos the best part is yet to come. hees. :D

AT NIGHT. - best part

after i and jol bathe, we wanted sleep but we dun dare. the guys are upstairs. so we go find calvin and his click. they were playing fire. and since i and jol dunno what to do, we went to see them play. but before that we went back to the chalet to put back our shower things. but then we were so tired that we wanted to rest. i went back to the chalet to take my alcohol swab. it's for cleaning my wounds. then i went to find jol that was at the last chalets balcony. she was on the.. i dunno how to say the green colour plank. then i went to put my alcohol there. then calvin walk past and saw me wiping my wound. and he was like 'nice cut!' then he walked away. hahas. retarded! hees. :) after i put it, i throwed it away. then i forgot who asked us why we sleep here. then we say we tired. so they called us to go up and sleep. we were like 'really meh? they will allow meh?' then they were like 'can de lah.' so we rushed back and up to the room. we asked the guys if we could sleep in the room. they at first say cannot. but in the end, they allowed. but they say, they are playing cards and they will be noisy. if we wanna sleep then sleep lo. so we sleep on the mattress. then after a while, calvin and his click came up. hees. :D as they have no space. they sat at our feet there. then, as my hp want to have no batt liao. i call calvin to lend me his charger, so i could charge. i gave him my hp. he helped me charged and he also went to see the things inside. my photos and stuffs bah. then i figured out that im wearing my specs so, i just tell calvin to put my specs next to my hp. ya lo. then he tooked it. and i just went back to sleep. the guys were so noisy that jol cannot stand it, so she took her stuffs and went out of the room. immediatly, calvin pounced on the mattress, where jol just slept. whatsmore, ITS NEXT TO ME! OMG!!!!!!!!! HAHAS! HE'S SLEEPING NEXT TO ME!!!!! OMG!!!! :D but i was stupid enough actually to go out too. when i took my stuffs and went to find jol. i just stood up and walk a few steps. then feng khai pounced on my mattress. i wanted to go back to my mattress. but i have no more space. unless i squeeze in between both of them. hahas. sighs. then i went down to find jol lo. i so regret leaving my mattress loh. sigh ya ya. hahas. or not i will be able to sleep next to him! hahas. :D

** ok lah. i now very sleepy le. tmr then tell you guys bout today kies. good nites. :x **

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12th November 2006 - 11.47pm

YAYS! tmr is class chalet lo!!!! hahas! HURRAYS! :):):):):) i so happy! hees. :) better go see is all my stuffs pack! :)

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10th November 2006 - 11.36pm

SIGHS! today was.... ok.. not really very fun but fun. does that make any sense? hahas. :) we went to lot 1 today. actually we wanted to go to the interchange to make cai yun's ez-link. she lost hers. hahas. but then since we already paid the lrt price by coming out of the station. why not just drop by at lot 1? hahas. just for a while. when lot 1 is mention, it always remind me of yu hang and his click. so i just called him and asked him where was he. i got a feeling that he would be in lot 1. i dunno why but ya, HE WAS AT LOT 1! hahas. coincidence? i dunno, i dun really care too. hees. :) when i called him, he said he was at lot 1's archade. COOL! lets go, babes! hahas. im more relaxed to bee with him them his other click friends, maybe except for wen xue? cos we plus maine went to church of singapore ( bukit timah ) before. hahas. anws, i just use an excuse that wai ying wants to find him, which was i think could be possible cos got rumours that wai ying wanna jio yu hang. hees. :) tsk tsk tsk. hees. :) anws. then its like we go find him loh. then somethings happened and someone's secret was exposed! hahas. to me, more like it. and maybe jolynn. but its me that told her. i got cai yun's permission de alright. hahas. :) then.. we went to sheng siong.

thats where something happened, that made me kinda... confused again. SIGHS!

calvin smsed me. you must be imagining me jumping for joy, blabbling crap, in great mood and stuffs like that. but nopes! THATS NOT HOW I FEEL. i feel awful, very awful. i was in a not bad mood actually. but his sms made me confused, back to my last few days' feeling. not sure should i be happy or sad? he smsed me saying sorry for not smsing me for very long. and he was hoping i dont mind. HE IS CRAZY! HOPE i dun mind?! he should PRAY that God would grant him this miracle alright. i dun mind?! who are you kidding, dude?! even babies know that its crazy NOT minding. he made me have the feeling of agony, for goodness sake! NOT MIND?! agh..... *pissed! calm baby calm....... *meditating. anws. i was at loss of words then. i even felt tears pricking at the back of my eyes. but i controlled it. why should i waste my tears because of him? right?! you bet im right! there was cai yun, jolynn, wai ying there too. even if i would wanna cry, i would go to the toilet. sighs. i was thinking of what to reply him. i kept on asking cai yun. then in the end, i just replied back. something along the lines of "err.. ok.. but why so long?" and he gave an shocking answer after a patient wait. he replied "cos im busy." BUSY?! i was shocked. loss of words all of a sudden. then i again asked cai yun. she just said, "i now busy, dun sms me." then she laughed. and since i was in loss of words. i just wrote that and sent it to him. i wanted to add an 'hahas. :)', but i figured out that i wanted to show i was angry. so i deleted it away. and how i know, that he was that dumb. he actually thought i was really busy. heys! no matter how busy am i, if i really love that person, i will pull out sometime just for him. its worth it. to an idiot like me, probably. anws. after that, i let my handphone to cai yun. i wanted her to tell him things that i would not tell, or would be wierd if i tell him myself. i told her to explain what i meant for the im busy thing. she said to him that it was her who wrote that. and also tell him that i just fall. hahas. AND I REALLY DID FALL, thats why i told her to tell him that. he was like "why fall?". hahas. just fall loh. hahas. then she told him this and that. then he never reply. so i just 'hey heys. what did yun say? got say my bad words or not?" hahas. you know... act blur.. hahas. then he just replied "nothing. got hurt?". then again i acted blur and said, "hurt?! oh no! she told you i fall down. ah..! hahas. anws, not really. a few scratches only." blah blah... the rest i dun have the mood to write. if you wanna know then asked me loh. i'll tell you if you are people that i can trust. :) im going to sleep lo. its like 12.23am already! nite te nites! eh?! no no no... morning! hees. :)

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