looking back at my FOND MEMORIES. :)
23th August 2006
sighx. i am so messed up! i want to tell her what i really think but i just can't. i do not have the courage to say. i scared that you might be angry with me or even worse HATE me! that's like the least i want. i used to think that we will be ver close. so close that no one, even the guys we like/love are far from seperating or spoiling us, close buddies/"sisters". but i guess i was wrong. guys really can, even without them or us knowing. a 'he' made me dont like you a little. that's why i kinda betrayed you. ok. not kinda. i did betray you. i know i was wrong cos you did it for MY SAKE! now, thinking of it, it is really that 'he' who was in the wrong not you. but that time, i like him. so, truthly, i trusted him more than you. HOW SILLY I WAS! frens are forever not <__r>. hmm. i very silly huh?! sighx. i guess now, the only thing i could do is to make up to you. to say the truth, i do not know how to. but im trying. im trying, NO! not trying! i HAVE TO stop betraying you and be your 'sister'. bring you to GOD! erm. i really sorry. erm. can i be forgiven? sisters forever! i hope. :)
these are all in the past. ; meant to be forgetten