looking back at my FOND MEMORIES. :)
18th October 2006 - 11.30pm * after recess, in d&t double period ( no more d&t, so free period. )
before recess, i got my overall marks and grades that will be printed in the report book. sighs. we were all so anxious you know. i was so anxious and scared that i went cold. not in the heart but on the outter skin. its was freezing cold. when i heard from someone, i think its wai ying or jia yi that im going to 2B cos my overall rank for the level is 48. i was happy and relieved but i realised that im still not exactly relieved. I DUNNO WHAT CLASS IS HE IN??!! i was hoping that calvin is also in the same class as me. sighs. i just took a peek when it was carmen's turn to see. and i saw that it was 56. i was screaming for joy. but when it was my turn. i saw it was not 56! its 14_ something. sighs. which was so not in my class range. my class has the top 40 to 80 students. i was SHOCKED! i just hope my eyes were playng tricks on me. really. i was wishing. but I GOTTA FACE REALITY. sighs. i cant believe my own eyes. in my mind, he was one of the students that i thought was clever os rather hardworking cos of the pressure his 'rents gave him. i compared his grades to mine. it was almost the same. so i was praying hard that he would be in my class. and now. he is so far from mine. sighs. so sad. most probably i will be going to 2B. and you all might think that its so good. but its so NOT!!!! no one, or rather my darlings are in different classes. whatsmore, they are ALL IN THE SAME CLASS. 2D!!! ah.... i hate them lah. sighs. why never work harder??? sighs. my beloved cai yun, jolynn and especially, calvin. they are most probably going to 2D. sighs. when i look at him and back to cai yun, which was in front of me, thinking that next year i will not be seeing her, jol and especially him. my eyes got choked up suddenly. i didnt want to cry in front of so many people. so i just look up and wave some air to make it dry. cai yun, who was in front of me, face to face, got shocked at the fact that im gonna cry. she quickly called me not to cry. then i smiled at her mildly, showing her that im steady and not gonna break down so easily. before recess, i already told her that i like him le. surprisingly, she was not shoked. she said that she guess it long ago but i kept on denying and denying. i cant imagine what is going to happen if let the tears dropprd down. sighs. but im really sad now. my loves are all in 2D. sighs sighs sighs. i dun want to drop myself just to be with them. cos its totally ridiculous and stupid of me to do that, no matter how much i loved them. sighs. just hope that our class will be next to each other. JUST HOPE!
these are all in the past. ; meant to be forgetten
