looking back at my FOND MEMORIES. :)
22th November 2006 - 1.00am
my mum just came in. she asked me if i really want to be an night cat. sighs. its already one in the morning. fine.. im tired. but i mean who is going to care if i turned into a night cat? who is going to care if my face got worst? WHO CARES?! except me and my family. what about you?! yupps, im talking about you, cal. i doubt you will even care even if i dissapeared from this world. sighs. its been.. 6 days. you havent talk to me ever since that day when you said you wanted to get closed to me today in the cinema. sighs.. now i cant go cos of my face. i bet you are happy knowing this. dun need to hug this fat, ugly little hag. sighs. whatever is your feelings to me are, im going to survive. i will be as strong as i can. and im sure i will walk through this thunder storm with my head up. sighs.... :(
sighs. do you know that you were the first guy i like that likes me back in return too? sighs. but it all turned out terrible. sighs. you liked me for the wrong reasons. and i like you for.. i dunno. for who you are. but can you please change a little. for me? sighs. you said you are going to treat me better. sighs. BETTER?! who are you kidding? does 'better' includes not smsing, not replying, not caring about me? NO~~~~! sighs. i still like you but liking you hurts my heart a lot. sometimes too much. one day you treat me like im your princess and the next? sighs. like we are total strangers. sighs. why must you bring agony to me? sighs. :'( can we even have an happy ending or has it been thrown in the dump? sighs... :(
these are all in the past. ; meant to be forgetten